In the beginning

As many of you know, Randy and I have tried unsuccessfully for over 6 years to start a family. I've been poked, prodded, given pills, given shots, tried vitamins, given more vials of blood than the Red Cross would need in a disaster, elevated my tush, stood on my head, and, well you get the picture. We've tried a lot of things to get pregnant but it just never happened. The doctor's call it "unexplained infertility". Basically I'm a freak of science but that's not polite to put on one's medical records so they give it a little less offensive label.

Adoption was always in the back of our minds but we still didn't want to give up on having a child of our own. We couldn't understand why God wouldn't let us get pregnant. We are a college educated, home owning, gainfully employed, loving couple. Why can't we get pregnant?? We always figured God had other plans for us, but I had it in my mind that I was going to speak to Him about it one day and ask Him what the deal was. I started to wonder if something bad was in our future and God knew and didn't want me to get pregnant so one of us wouldn't be left as a single parent. I know, very dark, but the mind can really do a number on you when you are trying to sort out the meaning of life. Luckily, I think I've got it figured out (insert chuckle) and I'm beginning to realize that God knows that somewhere over "there" a baby waits to be adopted and loved by a college educated, home owning, gainfully employed, loving couple....us!

So here we are preparing to submit our paperwork to be accepted by Children's Hope International (CHI) and pursue an adoption of a Russian boy or girl. They say it could take a year or more for it to happen, but the way we see it, its already been over 6 years so what is one more?! We realize its a long, expensive road that is ahead of us, but we are excited at the prospect of knowing that we could finally have a family. No longer a party of 2 at the restaurants but a party of 2 and a 1/2. :-) Someone to yell, "higher daddy" as Randy pushes them on the swings, someone to turn the pages of Green Eggs and Ham as I read them a bedtime story, someone to accept wet kisses from a big ol' chocolate lab, someone to make us a family.